Random Thoughts on a Lonely Evening (Christmas Edition)

"Sana ngayong Pasko dinggin mo ang hinihiling ko,
Buksan mo Panginoon ko puso ng bawat tao"

- I cannot remember where I've heard of the above song lyrics. I think it was a song our junior class composed for a project but it may also be some random holiday jingle. But these two particular lines have been stuck in my head and I cannot get it out. Maybe it's because I want something this Christmas and it's definitely not my two front teeth...

- Since I was out all night last night and I went to hear dawn mass this morning and went to the grocery to buy mayonnaise that my mom needs for her salad, I was pretty much pooped out come 10 AM. I was already sound asleep by 11 and didn't wake up until 7 this evening. So I've screwed up my body clock once again and falling asleep is gonna be hard after the Noche Buena later. Thank goodness for Melatonin!

- It's a quarter after 8 already and I can hear the bells announcing the first Misa de Aguinaldo. But our family's gonna hear mass tomorrow instead. Hopefully, my sister will be here when it's time to go to Church so we can be all together even for just one hour. Maybe even more as Christmas masses tend to be longer than the usual mass.

- I'm bored. Definitely bored out of my wits. Christmas eve is always like this every year. Eat dinner at 7 then wait for five hours for Noche Buena. Christmas eve this year falls on a Sunday so watching tv is not an option, Sunday programs are boring! It's a good thing my sister left her laptop so now I'm blogging and reading some stuff online... But this is gonna get old after a while...

- Tomorrow is gonna be a hellish day. I'll see our "asungot" relatives once again, those who only remember us during Christmas time and only comes to our house for money. Of course we have to be cordial towards them but deep in our hearts, we really hate them. But we have to act out this charade every year as it has become a custom. Bah humbug!

- Someone in our neighborhood is playing Christmas carols over their sound system. Surprisingly, I've only heard one group of real carollers tonight. I guess a lot of people are tired of going from one house to the next singing their hearts out and getting only a few measly pesos. But I do miss hearing carollers and giving them money especially if they are quite good.

- I'm really getting lonely this evening. Not having someone to talk to does not only numb the brain but it also numbs the heart. I've been online for an hour already and I haven't seen anyone log on to their IM accounts so I can chat with them. Talking to family is not an option as we have nothing to talk about. So instead, I'm just pouring my heart out in this blog... Le sigh...

- I just suddenly remembered that Christmas is supposed to be the birth of Jesus. Silly me, I thought it was about gift giving, parties and crass commercialization. I guess the true essence of Christmas is really gone and unless the retailers stop selling gifts, the advertisers stop using the holiday as a tool for selling products and the government bans partying, we'll never regain that true essence.

- I'm browsing CNNMoney.com right now. I'm beginning to think of where I can put the money I got and will be getting this Christmas. Of course a chunk of that money will be spent shopping but I'm looking for alternatives for the left over cash. I' thinking of the stock market hmmm... But of course, this is all assuming that I'll get moolah tomorrow.

- Goodness, my sister's laptop is acting up. I guess I can't write random thoughts until Noche Buena time as this computer might crash and all that I've written will be lost. So I'm publishing this already and I'll accompany my mom while she is working. Yes she is working. Looking at her bookkeeping. On Christmas eve. It doesn't get any more Christmas-y than that!!!