The End is Here

Last weekend was the last retreat for this year. The last retreat was actually kinda anticlimactic. You'd think that in the last retreat everything would be perfect, there'd be more tears shed during the Bedan hug, that there'd be more words said to each other, that there'd be a big after party... Instead, there were a few mistakes, only a few people cried during the Bedan hug, words were left unspoken, and a lot of people immediately went home after the Sunday activities.

But still, the last retreat was a pretty good one. A special task was assigned to me so I was pretty much MIA the entire Saturday but there were still plenty of opportunities to bond with the auxis. A lot of the mainstays were there. And a lot of aspis were also there for the first time so it was fun getting to know them. Joketime was a blast since it was Butch's first time to perform (and it's always fun to watch first timers!). Lots of chismisans and hiritans going on as well... But it still wasn't as memorable as I've expected it to be.

And now, the end is here. Last retreat for the year, maybe my last retreat as well since I don't know what my life is going to be like next year. There were many new faces this year but I am wary of their future since a lot of aspis who are active on their first year disappear in the next. I'm really hoping that I'll see them again. I'm also really hoping that I'd still be able to become active and I also hoping that the tanders will be back for another go 'round. Because right now, I think some of the tanders are thinking of disappearing and hindi maaari na ako lang ang matitirang matanda! Hahaha...

But the end really still isn't the end. There are still some activities to look forward to. There's the Christmas outreach/party sometime in December. A couple of parties maybe... And hopefully the usual bonding/inuman sessions. I just hope that I will be able to cope with the void in my life now that the retreat season is over.