Pinoy Big Brother

Ahhhh finally! The Filipino version of Big Brother has started! And of course, reality freak that I am, I'm already addicted to it! It's such a shame that I wasn't able to watch the two primers ABS-CBN aired. But I did watch the housemates (HMs) entering the Big Brother house last night...

The whole introduction show was kinda lame actually. The music being played by the band while the HMs arrived were downright cheesy. And there are some coordination snafus. But thank goodness the HMs salvaged this first night of the show. All of them seem very interesting and they will all lend different personalities to the show. But I was a little surprised that there are a lot of good looking HMs, especially after ABS-CBN's press release that they were not looking for just pretty faces.

As early as now, I already have some favorites and not-so-favorites. Of course I'm just in love with the half-Pinoy half-Israeli UMA!!! When they introduced him last night, I was practically drooling. He is so cute! Well the photo on the left does not do him justice but trust me! And he seems to have a great personality. Of all the HMs, he seems to be the most relaxed. He was actually the only one who was wearing casual clothes! And there was a hint in his interview that he might be a bisexual. Yippee!

Now this gal is my current least favorite HM. My initial reaction when she was introduced was that she's the token fat girl in the show. So I thought that'll be good since the token characters are actually the interesting ones. And she's interesting all right but in a bad way. The moment they entered the house, she was already bossing the HMs around, which is never a good sign. Other people seem to have noticed that too and she's not gaining a lot of fans. So unless the HMs don't nominate her or if she does not show a good side, it seems to be a sure bet that she'll be the first one to be evicted.

My only regret with this new addiction of mine is that I won't be able to satiate that addiction... I'm still in the office during the show's airing on ABS-CBN and their live streaming service requires payment. Waaahhhh!

The Dieting Dilemma

I have grown heavier and heavier over the past 6 months. Last January, I think my weight was around 175 pounds. Now I'm up to 200 pounds, a 25 pound increase. My waist size has of course grown bigger as well. Most of my pants don't fit anymore. And I can't wear half of my shirts either. So what's a fat guy to do? Diet of course. However, it's not really that simple for me. Dieting involves willpower and discipline. Unfortunately, I have neither.

I am an overeater, that's a fact. In the office when my friend asks me to go have dinner with her, I immediately consent to it even if I am not hungry. And when she does not finish her meal, I finish it for her. Then when I get home, I fry something and eat that together with heaps of rice. And I try to cram as much donuts as I could in-between meals. Well the donut part is not exactly true but I've been having lots of sweets lately. No wonder I am ballooning.

Obviously the source of my overweight problem is my overeating tendencies, which of course I need to control. But as I have said, I have no willpower and discipline, therefore no control. And I have read before that there are people who are emotional overeaters. Am I one of those people? I certainly am emotional, I just don't know if that's the reason why I overeat. But I've been thinking about this. I could rein in my eating habits. I even have a plan: buy lots of tuna and whole wheat bread and that's what I'm going to eat from Monday until Friday. Then I can eat other foods during the weekends.

Maybe exercise can be another way out of this problem. If I am not able to stop taking in the calories, then I'll just burn all of them right off. In fact, I've been planning to join Fitness First or some other gym for quite some time now. I even have a schedule planned for when I can go to the gym: wake up at 9, get out of the house by 10, arrive at Makati at around 11-11:30 and start working out! Then by 12:30, I'll be finished working out already so I can then shower, get dressed, then be in the office by 1! If only the monthly dues aren't that expensive, I would've signed up already.

Oh jeez... Excuses, excuses. Maybe that's my real problem.

The English Only Rule

Just a few minutes after writing my "rules" for this blog, I began regretting them. I imposed this English Only rule for my posts that might bite me in the ass in the future. True, I have good English writing skills so I need not worry about having incorrect grammar or spelling. And I edit my posts a lot as well so it's not a lack of confidence with my English skills. It's just that there are times when I am thinking of something that can only be expressed fully in Filipino. Or at least in Taglish. But Taglish is such a weird way to write and inappropriate as well. And I can't write in straight Tagalog either. So that's a dilemma for me. Hahaha...

So I guess I'll be relaxing that English only rule. As long as I know I can write in straight English, I'll try my best doing that. But if in my head I am thinking in Tagalo, I'll write in Tagalog. Or Filipino. What's the difference again?!?

White Noise

I used to call my blog as "Ilantad ang Katotohanan" because I want to tell the truth about myself. "Paglalantad" in the Philippine vernacular is sometimes (or is it usually?) associated with gays coming out of the closet. And that's what I was when I started the blog, someone peeking out of the closet, taking a look at what the world has to offer and showing the world what I have to offer. But now I'm almost fully out. Only a few relatives left to come out to. So the blog's title does not seem to be appropriate since no personal truths have to be revealed anymore. When I decided to stop blogging, I just used the title "This Blog is Closed." Now, I re-opened the blog because I want to write again. And like what I have said in my previous post, I have no idea on what the focus of this new blog will be. And then I realized that I don't have to focus on any one particular thing. I should continue what I was doing before, which is writing passionately about whatever comes to my mind. True, the blog will not have one definite topic but at least I won't be constricted with what I can write.

Now that I know I'm going to be writing about anything under the sun (again!), I started thinking of a name for the blog that reflects this. And out of nowhere, I suddenly thought of "White Noise." For those who do not know what white noise is, there's this interesting article from How Stuff Works about the nature of white noise. The reason I chose this title is because if I'm going to be writing about any topic, then that would be like white noise wherein the readers will have a hard time deciphering what my blog's focus is.

So there... I have decided to start writing again. I have an apt title for the blog. Now comes the hard part: actually writing something. True, I can write about some shitty topic but I don't want the writing itself to be shitty. So I'm setting these goals for my future posts: (1) Write in English only. (2) If I can't write more than five sentences about a certain topic, I will not post that. (3) If I start writing something in the vein of "I am rambling" or "I have no idea what I'm talking about," I will not post that as well.

I guess I'll keep it at that...

Starting Over

I have closed my previous blog a few days ago since I didn't have the energy to write more posts. I guess I got burnt out by the whole writing thing. Maybe it's because I haven't got a clue on what to write about. Other people write reviews of films. Others create photoblogs. While some people make commentaries about what's happening around them. As for myself, I do all of these or rather did all of these in my previous blog. A man without a clear vision, that's what I was. And that's what I still am. I'm still not yet sure what I should be writing about. Or even if I should still write anything at all. I want to start over. But can I do that if I don't have any idea on what I'm going to start doing?