Everyday I Struggle

I struggle to maintain this facade that I call normalcy

I struggle to not cry over every little sad thing

I struggle to stop falling prey to my addiction

I struggle to eat only a few to shed a lot of weight

I struggle to maintain peace of mind in the midst of chaos

I struggle to do a good job

I struggle to keep my mind off of friends that don't want to be friends with me

I struggle to not be mad at those who do not have faith in me

I struggle to be what I used to be

I struggle to accept the fact that other people are better than me

I struggle to learn the lessons life keeps on forcing me to learn

I struggle to separate the facts from the fantasies inside my head

I struggle to keep on loving those that won't love me the same way

I struggle to become a good person

I struggle to not criticize others as I am just like them

I struggle to keep my thoughts off of suicide

I struggle to remember the happy memories

I struggle to be someone who feels, who cares, who lives life the way it's meant to be lived

Everyday I struggle...

And I'll keep on struggling