random thoughts of a (non)writer

i've been reading the blog of a friend (check it out). he writes so nicely. he knows how to put his thoughts into these beautiful words. and he says them in the least amount of space possible. i, on the other hand, am a shitty writer. my posts are really long, i'm always rambling, and there's nothing beautiful about the way i write. white noise indeed.

i'm in a rut right now. i'm not sad. i'm not happy. i am just... oh i don't know. it's like i'm stuck in this place and i wanna get out. but i don't have the will to get out. i know there should be more to my life but i am not discovering whatever there is out there. it's because i'm so comfortable with my current situation. but comfortable is not always a good thing...

i'm almost finished with the second season of lost. yeah, yeah, the second season is long over in the usa or on axn. huli na ako sa balita kumbaga. but i lost my excitement over the show a few months ago and i'm only regaining that excitement now. thank goodness our IT downloaded the whole season and i'm now watching the show. and it's as good as ever!

there's another retreat this weekend. and i've been tapped to become the head of the sacristy ministry again. while i've been doing this for quite a long time now, i'm afraid i'm gonna screw up. i think i've gotten too complacent, too reliant on the newbies. and now i am a little rusty... superfriend help me!

i've pretty much given up on myself, dieting-wise that is. i've gotten to a point wherein i am just sick of going to the gym. and i've gotten to a point wherein i wanna experience everything when it comes to food. so it's pretty much lamon! lamon! lamon! these days. i've reversed my goals: instead of losing 20 pounds, i wanna gain 20 pounds instead.

i haven't been a techie ever since i got out of college. i'm so behind with the latest on computers and celfones. in fact, i haven't salivated over a fone lately. but last saturday, my friend bought a 3G phone and i wanna join in on the fun. so now, i am considering buying a nokia 6280. it's gonna cost me 15 grand... i hope it's worth it!

four minutes until five o'clock. then i can go home. but i won't be going home immediately. i'm thinking of going to the barber first and having my unsightly beard shaved off. maybe even get a haircut. then i'll buy a celfone afterwards... need to get some cash from the atm first. then it's goodbye money! oh well... anything to make me feel happy!